REGINA

071290
orange & black
laughter & love
hold on


the G-Rant

hugs from behind and lovin' is like a reflex action a need for a strength to remain true if i die early then i wanna become a star so that i can shine brightly for you, you and you can forever be a bit more longer?


Straight From The Heart

adeline
angeline
ashley
barry
carian
celestia
charms
cheryl
fran
genevieve
guifeng
isabelle
jaclyn
jane
jayne
jon
lydia
lynnette
moli
pearl
qinyi
renee
samsee
sarahiee
siangying
siqi
tania
viviennie
wanzhen
yanyi
ziqi
ziqing
zoey

smudged
it's the very essence
of that and friendship
that keeps me going
that prevents me from losing myself
see me as who i am
not what i seem to be

Tuesday, June 19, 2007
12:06 PM


it's time for you to grow up


*am i the only dongbang fan who hasnt watched the FITB advert?! grumbles X( *


i wanted to blog about/complain about this week being the last week of the holidays but i realised so what you cant make time slow down anyway so im just gonna savour the moment and study away for this remaining week.


during these past few days i've been thinking more and more about how ridiculous the world is. honestly. or at least the world in a Singaporean context. im sure that if someone were to write a song about the disgusting/insane lifestyle that you have when you're here, it'll be the hottest download on limewire or something. You spend a third or so of your life studying to be able to earn big money when you reach part II of your life. then you spend part II of your life trying to earn big money to sustain your life. and then when you're old and senile and wrinkled like some old prune, you find it difficult to sit back and relax cos you're either too old or too stressed out and not working makes you feel funny. tell me what kind of world is so depraved??


you know when you're young or even now you read stories or personally experience situations whereby you're told to go for your dream, work hard, you'll get it and all that spazz. but reality strikes back cos often, when we want to achieve ours dreams, we end up altering a part of ourselves such that when we do eventually reach our goal, the original being that aspired so is gone, and what's left is just someone who works, well to sustain. either that happens, or we deviate from our dream, cos it just 'isnt practical', or it 'doesnt earn you enough money' or 'no one believes in you enough to help you along the way'.


welcome to the real world pretty much yes?


thank God for friends and the like, or not you'll just rot from within and end up as a souless and lifeless shell thank you very much.


sheesh. i sound pretty morbid in what i've said so far. but oh well this is what happens when you live in the current world today i guess. im not depressed or anything. it's just something that i've observed for the pass few days cum weeks.


was reading someone's blog just and it just kinda made me think.


we cant superman the past. it's become broken, it's remnants scattered in our various memories, to the point where we're not sure what was. and then we have the present, where impressions are formed before strangers meet due to willing tongues and listening ears. and you reminiscence about times where anguish and anger did not exist in our world. then again, who brought the monster in in the first place? scratch that. playing the blame game and recollecting will not work any longer, so just what do we do? finally we have the future, and this black abyss makes us wonder where we'll end up. it's an eventual 'to each their own', and now i ponder over whether you'll be lost without our invisible guidance that i hold dear to my heart. but then i return to where i first began, and grief over what's broken, that no amount of tears or words can fix. maybe it's like what a friend once told me, it's better to realise that your cogs couldnt mesh with each other, rather than force them together and cause the whole clockwork to be destroyed.


boys and girls, it's time to grow up.


;supernova