REGINA

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orange & black
laughter & love
hold on


the G-Rant

hugs from behind and lovin' is like a reflex action a need for a strength to remain true if i die early then i wanna become a star so that i can shine brightly for you, you and you can forever be a bit more longer?


Straight From The Heart

adeline
angeline
ashley
barry
carian
celestia
charms
cheryl
fran
genevieve
guifeng
isabelle
jaclyn
jane
jayne
jon
lydia
lynnette
moli
pearl
qinyi
renee
samsee
sarahiee
siangying
siqi
tania
viviennie
wanzhen
yanyi
ziqi
ziqing
zoey

smudged
it's the very essence
of that and friendship
that keeps me going
that prevents me from losing myself
see me as who i am
not what i seem to be

Monday, April 23, 2007
8:19 PM

the internal tug of war

like i told vivien just now. im in a canthewholeworldjustshutupineedtorunawaysomewhere mood at the moment. it's just a random moment la. im thinking it'll go away after a while. when i wake up from this blah-ish feeling.

SO. school. i dont know...school. what can i say that hasn't been said eh? i think..maybe im finally getting used to it? school today was actually quite ok. i didnt feel too tired today. maybe cos i drank two shots of coffee, one before i left for school and another during lunch. for the first time since the beginning of school, i DID NOT fall asleep/feel like falling asleep during the physics lecture/tutorial. then when we had first period chem today i felt kindasorta high la. partly cos ms tan was being nice, and also cos well, you just feel like it i guess. but it was ohsofrickinhot it was plain annoying i tell you. thank God for fans yes. then the day just dragged on and on. very routined in a way. but of course there were inserts of funny nonsense here and there. it was adrian's birthday today, but he didnt get shoved in the toilet cos he was super careful, well after what happened to kenny i guess he would be. =)) well other than that PE was disgusting cos he made us do that 800m in 4 minutes thingy and i dont like cos my muscles were SORE due to yesterday's iPlay. ooh! speaking of which-

TEAM UNDERWHERE?! were overall champions for iPlay!!!! =)) so happy so gay. i love love love our team we are so cool we rock the house oh yeah hurrah. aish if my scanner was working properly i'd upload the team photo but no nevermind i shall wait for glenn's CD! had quite a lot of fun yesterday, though my muscles really ache and i think i never wanna compete in ANY track & field event evereverever again cos i really stink at it. HAH.

ok i think i might be out of that crappy mood already. so that's a good thing right?

it's times like this that i realise that even they cant give me respite.
i know who i can turn to, i honestly do.
but why arent i doing it?
that i have no clue to.

list of things i have to do during the week [complete and unabridged i think]:

- PI FINAL DRAFT
- GPP DRAFT #1
- STUDY FOR THURSDAY'S CHEM TEST
- DO TUTORIALS
- EAT FRUITS ONLY
- BE HAPPY

ok so maybe the list's not too complete. i cant think of anymore at the moment but eh that seems quite a bit for the moment no? haha.

ohoh! going pulau tekong this wednesday for an NE trip. interesting yeah. all right i think i'd better go off now if i wanna start crossing items off my list.



i dont know what im hearing
i dont know what to think
to believe in what i see
or to thy familar's soliloquy?
to take this step forward would mean to shed the old
cos it's real difficult to mantain neutrality

maybe im jealous. oh fie away monster of green. this was eventual, you ought to have known that. so spit out that bitter taste in your mouth. hide your unhappiness and face them like you mean it, cos you really should.

it's time to grow up.


;supernova