words fly out unwittingly
and so the major hurdles are over, and we're left with a final two. honestly i just cannot wait for everything to be back to normal. give me a day of lessons over this silly marathon but two weeks later you'd see me wishing for the other. boohoo who cares.
one year passes really fast. i wonder how people manage to keep in contact with their JC friends when all you've had is 2 years of memories, as compared to a 6 year friendship, or a 4 year bond. maybe it's cos you've matured, and know that some things are just worth remembering. i'd definitely want to remember all the waking moments (even sleeping) i've spent with s22, though some of us might not be around next year.
you say im being unrealistic
i count it as im going for what i want
you say im selfish
im already asking for less
you offer repeated arguments
i just listen to the silent condemnation
when was the last time you praised someone? really, cliche-ness aside. it's so that difficult to extract a phrase of praise from you. and even if no words come out of your mouth, i see no pride in your eyes either. im tired, really tired from running on this hamster wheel, trying to reach the same level that she is at. it's till to the point when i do get the rare word of encouragement of you, i feel so awkward.
this would so be under an lj-cut if i was at lj now.
im doing things for reasons that Reason cannot comprehend
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supernova
DO THIS! -for the environment
see that bag there. it's called an envirosax bag. haha if you've been to taka you'd have probably seen it around. anyway. apparently these bags are eco-friendly cos they're reusuable, super light (40g!) and waterproof. it's kinda cheap too at 9.90 a bag...and it's only 35 bucks for 5 of them...HMM. shall get the rest to buy with me. haha
yupp. just doing a small promo for the bags. check them out at taka! they can be made super small by folding..and the designs arent too bad either. for more details you can go to this website:
alrightey. time for me to go.
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supernova
what else can we do??
there's nothing more than i feel like saying but that im sorely disappointed with the way things i have turned out. i dont know why it happened that way, and i dont really think i want to know. im awfully sad that it happened, and now all of us are left in this shithole of a mess.
on a brighter note, maybe it's a chance at redemption. HMM. who knows eh? what's that chinese saying...AH! sai weng shi ma. see laoshi i do pay attention during chinese.
ohwell. time to return to the hole then.
it's all im aiming for...GAMBATTE!
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| -About Yourself -100 Questions- |
| - General Info - |
| Name?: | regina |
| Age?: | 16 years, 10 months and 1 day old |
| Hair color?: | brownish..black? |
| Happy with it?: | yes |
| If not, what would you change it to?: | IF not |
| Eye color?: | brownish..black? not too sure actually. |
| Happy with it?: | guess so |
| If not, what would you change it to?: | i'd look weird with another colour ne? |
| Skin color?: | darker than your average chinese..fairer than your normal indian..i guess |
| - Favorites - |
| Color?: | can i have more than one? orange! and maybe red and green yes green |
| Food?: | im a pig. i have too many favourites XD |
| Animal?: | DOGS |
| Smell?: | smell? if you mean fragrance DKNY Be Delicious! kudos |
| Website?: | eh? |
| Fast food?: | SUBWAY =) |
| Activity?: | reading? the net? i dont know! |
| TV Show?: | GREY'S ANATOMY |
| Actor?: | orrrrrlando bloom. johnny depp. |
| Actress?: | ellen pompeo and suzanne oh! ( i think that's yang's name) |
| Movie?: | POTC, XMen, LOTR, blahblah |
| Shoe brand?: | eh? |
| Dog?: | namely golden retriever and rough collie! |
| Cat?: | EEEW. |
| Board Game?: | is jenga a board game? ok if not...i dontknow. im not that big a fan of board games |
| Video Game?: | uhm...that fighting game on my auntie's PS? |
| - Usernames - |
| On Aol or AIM?: | nada |
| On MSN or MSN Messanger?: | ginakoh__ so simple right? HAH. thank God i changed them |
| On Bzoink?: | neh |
| On LiveJournal?: | i have two XD |
| On Blurty?: | what's blurty? |
| On Neopets?: | HAHA. i think it was fiery_blazer or something like that. or was that my pet? alamak. i know i had 2 accounts, one pet was called tamahome26 i think. the other was some gelert |
| - This or That? - |
| Coke or Pepsi?: | neither. |
| Black or White?: | black |
| Summer or Winter?: | winter. singapore's weather is hot enough |
| Spring or Fall?: | fall |
| Mountains or Plains?: | mountains |
| Rock or Pop?: | pop |
| Jeans or Khackis?: | jeans |
| Shorts or Capris?: | shorts |
| Message Boards or E-mail?: | email |
| Some good friends or a lot of bad ones?: | GOOD FRIENDS XD |
| TV or computer?: | can i be greedy and say both? |
| Cordless phone or cell?: | cell. withnocharges. haha |
| MSN or AIM?: | MSN |
| Survey or Quiz?: | quiz please |
| Pink or Red?: | RED. obviously |
| Christmas or Easter?: | christmas! |
| Read or Write?: | a little of both? |
| Take or Create?: | create! |
| Flower or Weed?: | flower. why would you want a weed?? |
| Pizza or Antelope?: | what's antelope? some fruit thingy? PIZZA =) |
| - Love Life - |
| Have you ever had a girlfriend/boyfriend?: | nope |
| Do you currently have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: | nope |
| How many girlfriends/boyfriends have you had?: | there are only many ways you can ask one question you know |
| Does your girlfriend/boyfriend give you presents?: | he would. HAHA |
| - How Many - |
| Piercings?: | 5. |
| Tatoos?: | *shakes head* |
| CDs?: | dontknow. too many |
| DVDs?: | still too many |
| Computers?: | 2. but only one's functioning properly |
| TVs?: | 2. |
| Pairs of Shoes?: | plus slippers and all....6..or 7? i have big feet, difficult to find shoes. XP |
| Musical Instruments?: | a recorder? haha. uhm one guitar |
| Buckets of Lard?: | like whaaat?? |
| Pets?: | nope. if you count my brother that's one. |
| Hair brushes?: | is a comb a brush? dont think so right |
| - Talents - |
| Can you sing?: | think so? |
| Can you dance?: | horribly. haha. |
| Can you decorate?: | dontknow |
| Can you type fast?: | guess so |
| Can you train animals?: | i trained jayne! is that counted? |
| Can you write?: | if you live in singapore you would |
| Can you read fast?: | guess so. sarah's faster though. HAH |
| Can you sharpen pencils?: | with a sharpener YA. i dont have nails like jayne's |
| Can you paint?: | probably? |
| Can you draw?: | YES! doodling on msn is fun. |
| - Random - |
| Name a random song.: | ON & ON by dongbang! |
| Name a random TV show.: | GREY'S ANATOMY |
| Name a random food.: | kimchi |
| Name a random person.: | yunho |
| Name a random animal.: | goldfish |
| Name a random holiday.: | deepavali |
| Name a random cartoon character.: | FUJIIIII from POT |
| - Family - |
| Do you have siblings?: | 3. buu. |
| Do you get along with them?: | fairly i guess. i've been plotting their murders since i was 7 |
| Do you live at home?: | yes |
| Are your parents divorced?: | NOPE |
| - Are you.. - |
| In love?: | with a guy who's 184, is smokin hot, 21 this year and doesnt know i exist, SADLY X( |
| Sleepy?: | not yet. but there's school tomorrow. BAHHH |
| Glad you took this survey?: | kinda? |
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and we go round and roundfor junsu, whom i cant seem to find anything about except that you're in brazil. hope you meet pele! XD
i am currently (and i think im gonna continue to be) in an utter state of confusion. it aint due to the inability to comprehend my studies and the like [if that were all i'd be thanking my stars]. honestly, everytime i take a step forward i end up getting bitten which makes me think twice about doing so again. and then i do nice and try and try again, but the whole complexity of the problem just confunds me to no end. im sick and tired of dealing with emotions/bouts of bitchiness/whatifs or rather, whatnots/and staying true.
pish. guess what. there are such things as 1 in a million. what im doing now is a good example. HA. it's 12.42am on a friday morning. ooh wonder if it's the 14th in canada, cousin's birthday and all. promos are in 13 days time, but who's counting anyway. it's amazing the amount of "i've nevers" you achieve when you enter JC. HA. we'll make it together, im sure of it.
go see the Eiffel tower.prance among streetside cafesbite into a freshbaked crossaintstand under the Arc de Nome and ring the bells of Notre Damenow i know the true meaning of losing my religion; when i find respite in everything else.
-damnit.
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the beautiful hugthere have been quite a lot of things that've been happening lately, and it just kinda made me mull over the complexity of being human. i honestly dont think one can lead a simple life no matter how much they say they desire or feel like they're living it. i mean come on just dealing with the day to day social interactions between beings is taxing enough, and i guess you would be able to derive what im trying to say through this short reflection. maybe it'd be easier if i had a guidebook to tell me when to shutup or when to say what i think, then maybe i won't feel like im caught in some sadistic cycle.
anyway. promos are coming. the likelihood of me coming back here to blog anytime after this pre-promos is almost nil. i think. and then maybe after that i'll make the move to LJ and join vien with her sexybooness cos blogger just screws you too much sometimes.
when i signed up for a JC life,
no one told me it would mean sleeping at 4am in the morning
no one said i'd have to study that much harder
no one told me Pw was such a bitchy time/enjoyment/life thief
no one said that that's the way it is.
i guess there's not much point in thinking back and wishing of the could've beens or would've beens, the might haves or should haves. but then again this is what this is for ne?
When love beckons you, follow him
though his ways are hard and steep
When his wings enfold you, yield to him
though the sword hidden among his pinions may wound you
when he speaks to you believe in him
though his voice may shatter your dreams
for even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you
All these things shall love do unto you
that you may know the secret of your heart
and in that knowledge become a fragment of life's heart
-K. Gibran
i'll protect this gift You've given with all i have. =))
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supernova
you would be my kryptonite.
you know one of the reasons why fiction is so well received is because it takes us away from the ugliness of the real world just for that moment and casts us into characters where we can believe that there must be something more to anything and everything you can ever experience.
when i chance upon stringed words that touch the heart of me i sometimes wish i'd be able to do that too.
the ability to express oneself so infinitely. somehow i cant seem to do so. they come out in starts and fits, and at times filled with so much complexity that i end up losing myself as well.
but reading those printed words prods me to delve deeper into the things surrounding me.
they make me ache, sometimes cry or laugh until i could just die
allow me to realise things i wouldnt have had it not been for a thrown perspective
flaws. ideals. that similar likeness. certain longings. might've beens.
240 steps of concrete.
1 lush area of green.
the journey of 9
before i touch my familarity again
arssh. words. you put foul thoughts into my head
or am i just feeling my ghosts of now and then?
now i know. now i know.
-i would your superman-
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supernova
and we go round and round
the beautiful hug
you would be my kryptonite.